a lonely birthday

haha finally turned 17yrs old le...under much well wishes of my frenx and my bro...

some asked mi what do i want for my bdae present...i ponder for awhile...and i said..its nt sth you guys can give mi...actually what i want is really simple, all i wish for is to spend a little bit of your time with you...it need nt be a celebration..it can just be a short time to meet up and do some catching up...tts all tt i'm asking for..really...really...

haha how sad rite? I cant even rem when was the last time i'd blown my own bdae candles...was it 6yrs old or 5? well nt saying that bdae must have a cake..(though it will be good to have one) bt i really want to spend time with my frens and family, sitting down and chat abt all sort of craps! haha how irony...everyone smsed mi to ask mi to enjoy my day with my frenx...arent you one of my frens? oh wells...i guess having a bdae gal to stay at home the whole day, rotting in front of the computer seems to be quite a good idea yea? esp so when her heart was still so excited and keen yesterday to have someone to date her out on her big day..a day once in a yr..

oh wells...ya maybe i shld just numb myself bahx..wads a 17th yr old bdae in a live of 50-60 years right? there are still so many more opportunities...to be disappointed...but no matter how many times i said "its alright", "its ok", "i'm used to it"...i still cldn't convince myself tt its alright to celebrate bdae by myself...i still cant accept it...i tried..and i failed...how dumb right? and now i truly understand wad it means by ku xiao bu de...the feeling of swallowing all the disappointment and tears...oh how fair the heaven is to treat a bdae gal lidat....

well..its just an emo post..just click the [X] button on the top right hand corner of the page and leave quietly if you dun like it...thank you...this wld be the least you can do to a 17 yr old bdae gal...