yea jasmine has the courage to carry on and be more jian qiang..thx to all who'd given her your support when she was down!! =) *huggggiieeess* mm yepx so whoever see her emo agaainn can you pls smack her?? =P

mmm life's normal with little ups and downs...errr like more of downs lahx huh..but well its alright, things cant get worst when you're alr at the rock bottom right?!?! haha yea tts a super optimistic view.. ehhh nth much for these few days lahx..had CI interview on last saturday (shall not say much), sun was mug mug mug and more mugging at home..then today went down to cchm to pass some forms to a teacher and went home str to mug AGAIN...haha maybe i shld really treasure these days bahx probably wun get to come back to this kind of mugging session when i dun ve to think of any thing else other than my notes and papers...things are surly gonna be different when i grow up i guess..=) mm napfa is next monday and wed and i'm gonna ACE it!!! hehex last napfa le wanna aim for 30-gold and come out with a nice piece of cert...=D

lets see wads in-place for me for the next few days:
Tuesday - Bio test on Genetics of Bacteria and Viruses; Maths additional lecture
Wednesday - GP timed-essay
Thursday - Bio test on Homeostasis, Cell signalling, Nervous System, Photosynthesis & Respiration (WOW i definitely need an external hard disk..=/); Maths extra lesson; Bio Consultation; Bio MCQ excercise
Friday - Econs extra lesson; Econs extra lecture; Chemistry consultation
Saturday - TJC Band (Alumni) Concert at VCH
Weekends - mug!!!!!!! (Chemistry mock prelims; Econs lecture test; Bio revision testSS; maths tutorials; gp researches...TIAN AHHH!!! my goodness how did those ppl get 4-5 As??? =S)

right...looks like i have to eat batteries for energy liaox..anyone got any recommendation on which brand of battery gives the most long-lasting supply of energy?? i'll really need to store tonnes of them!! >.<

a clown in disguise...

guess this will be the best phrase to describe me right now...this very moment...

living just to show others the light...when i dun see any at all...

putting up a false front to toughen up myself...but the fact is that i'm super fragile within...

why do i have to act fine, happy, bubbly, cheerful like a clown to make someone's day?

who knows how i am truly feeling beneath the thick coat of fakeness?

i hate this kind of lifestyle...becoming someone whom others will like and want instead of whom i really am...

where are my principles??? since when were they all gone??

perhaps this is the only way to survive in this society...to be whom everyone looks out for..and not whom u THINK u're most comfortable with...

is life just abt SURVIVING?? or SUCCEEDING?? where am i on the map of my destiny? at the starting point or nearing the ending point?? i hope i'm nearing the end...coz i see no light...

dont try to say you understand me...coz all of u never does and never will...

u never know how does it feels like to be Person A in front of your friends; Person B in front of your family; Person C when you're all alone...it seriously sucks..why is it that i'll still have to keep the smile on my face in front of my friends when my parents are quarelling like mad the previous night? why is it that i'll still have to put on a smile to welcome others' troubles/problems when i have tonnes of them unsolved? what are all these for?? is it really a balanced equation whereby the amount of input = amount of output?

jasmine is utterly tired...to the extent that she no longer knows how to express her anger, her frustrations, her saddness, her emotions...she is just like a walking dead corpse which can certainly perform any function when you want her to...she can just smile, talk, joke whenever u want her to bt none of these are genuine...at least...no longer...

will the old jasmine come back? nope she wun be anymore...she's dead and gone forever...the person talking to you right now at this moment, is just an empty shell of jasmine...

hey yox ppl...

learnt a few lessons today so shall just share here yea =)
1. NEVER be a busybody unless if you're freaking sure of the situation (esp when u're the 3rd party)
2. NEVER think too highly of yourself
3. NEVER assume
4. NEVER be too thick-skinned
5. NEVER stay at the same spot because it will make you look childish while others'd progressed
well these 4 things tt i'd learnt are nt here to suan/shoot anyone..so those who think i'm refering to YOU pls think otherwise...while those who think u're not the ONE, well read lesson no.3 again..

yea sth rather ridiculous happened early in the morning..oh wells wad a nice way to start my saturday hur...mm forget it dun mention wad exactly happened over here..

so woke up quite early today and read some novels..then went to shower and meet my Jes for a PSC scholarship fair/talk at Orchard Hotel..haha though i left the house quite early but was still late for ard 3mins...=X mm so met Jes and waited for Yufang as well then walked over to the hotel..it was a light drizzle at first bt turned to a downpour after a while...yea so our poor feet were kinda drenched..mm saw quite a few familiar faces there esp those from HAP and of course, the cute, humorous and approachable staff Officers!!! hehex din expect them to actually rem us bt ya they do!! so was quite happy lahx..then talked to Ray Sir, Ivy Ma'am and Eric Sir...There was one more Officer (ASP if i'm nt wrong) who was super patient and talked to us for quite some time, bt i forgot to look at his nametag..so yea nt very sure of his name..bt very grateful to all these officers for being so willing to share their experience!! =D

so met Gen after tt and the 3 of us went back home at ard 3++..reached hm at ard 5, chiong home to take yanling's court shoes and chiong back to TM again..haha a lot of chionging here and there today..then came home and go out for dinner again..came back home and ta-da~~ here i am typing this post for today...brother and his frens are enjoying boardgames outside in the living room while i was forced by mama to stay in the study room to "study"..wahaha bt things did really turn out the way she wanted it to be...=P

alrights..guess i'll just end here and rem the 5lessons!!! ^^