yes...5 more days..and its all over..

i just cant wait for that day to arrive...bt at the same time...i hope that this 5 days can be slightly longer...ironic rite?

5th sep will be the day of freedom...to be frank its becoming a form of burden to me...so i cant wait to let it off my shoulder...coz i cannot afford to risk my studies...take note, its CANNOT AFFORD ($186 000)

Not to say readings or pre-readings...i din even have time for my tutorials...so wad cant be worse than that?

ya perhaps i need a lect on time management, temper management etc...my fiery temper is worsening for goodness know why...i get irritated more easily and often feels turned off =x the reluctance to do work is the worst...tian ahhh

i so feel like i'm a pao tui...nvm if you dun get it...

jasmine can hardly feel her brain functioning..her heart beating...and her eyes opened..she needs to re-charge battery...

ru guo lei le..ni hai hui xuan ze zou xia qu ma?

yin wei yan juan, suo yi xiang fang qi..
que yin wei bu gan xin, suo yi jue ding ji xu zou xia qu..

zhe yang zuo..shi dui de ma?

yep uni life had started...here comes a new phase of my life..

its a total different lvl of education when u reach university. no one will never nag at you again. no one bothers if you fall asleep during lectures (well unless if you have a super good buddy who doesnt fall asleep along with you =x) no one cares if you turn up for ur lectures or tutorials. at the end of the day, you reap what you sow. that is the only thing that matters.

its high time to be independent, disciplined yet motivated. its time to learn self-control and priortisation. its time to grow.

there's a lot of things to keep me occupied. and i mean really occupied. got to keep up with the good habit of pre-reading for every single lecture, start doing tutorials once uploaded. have to try to get more school to participate. got to lead those kids into preparing the competition. got to start making new friends and catch up with the old ones. got to put my heart and soul into all the different areas. anyone has any solution as to how to split jasmine up into different selfs so that i can juggle so many different things at the same time? i used to tell people that everything has got its time, but looks like now i can't really find enough time to settle everything. (PS its only the start of the term, more to come)

when everything comes pouring at you (and you've got no one to share the load with. just be thankful that they dont add on to your load) you will just feel like throwing everything off your shoulders and walk away. of course i know that its definitely not the right attitude, but i just cant help feeling that way ya. maybe i should really just leave some things behind once i've done my part and its time for others to do theirs. maybe i really should...

how will u feel when u're been scolded for things that u've not done?? or scolded for little things that doesnt seem to be impt? to be totally ignored after that?

i'm starting to wonder if its a mistake to not stay in the hostel..maybe my worries were for nothing...my initial thought of them being bored when i'm nt around is apparently wrong...perhaps they'll lead a better life w/o having me around ya..at least no one for them to kan bu shun ya...

why isit tt ppl only rem the bad and not the good...why isit tt ppl always like to fan jiu zhang instead of looking at the present...why isit tt ppl always dun learn to appreciate the good in u...

wo dao di na li bi bu shang na?!?!?! l1r5 9pts not enuff?? 3As not enuff? scholarship not enuff???? bang ni zuo jia wu hai bu gou ma?? then wad isit tt u want??? try looking for a daughter who is willing to iron 3-hrs of clothes for u..try looking for a daughter who is willing to go out with u for shopping for the entire day when she's having high fever and a bad cold..

ok i'm just ranting over here...damn pissed and gek xim..