helo ppl...missed me??? XD

yea had been quite busy recently...workload increased with my pay staying the same...well like wad phy said..its for the exp and not really for the money..

went for CG outing on last sat and managed to catch up with my classmates!! all of them matured so much!! like sudd got the chg in the aura wor..apparently it seems like i'm earning the most out of all..err 1.8k per mth seems quite a lot for our status acty...BUT tt is on the basis tt i work practically everyday ok! haha so no complaints!! and seriously ziqi and alan, pls go find a job with better pay and better learning environment..>.<
(p.s. i'll upload those photos taken on sunday k? haha i know a lot of ppl want to hantum me alr =x)

tues was mama's bdae so the whole family went out to din tai feng for a feast...hehe of coz the one who pays will be the one who earns the most (aka my bro) =p

had been learning a lot more things this week at work...think my brain cells die faster when i'm working than when i was studying...seems like its true when many say its easier to learn as much as possible when one is young...coz the absorption rate drops as you age..got 2 more new colleagues with us since tues..err well, no offence, but i seriously have the feeling of watching suria everyday during lunch time..>.< like totally kenna octrasized pls..

duno if its just me..but i just find it real fascinating to see ppl falling aslp in front of the computer after lunch...i just simply dun get it you know, how on earth can one fall aslp when he/she is doing work?!?!?! i mean there is sth urgent on ur hand and yet u still can fall aslp?? maybe the theory abt blood rushing frm the brain to the stomach to digest the food stands..but it pretty much shows how disciplined and how responsible that person is i guess..i really dun get it when my colleagues walk to me at times to say that they need coffee coz they're falling aslp soon...-.-lll

it seems like i have to do sth to THIS thing..if not its not going anywhere and it'll just keeps dragging...the kids will be the ones who will suffer...

100th POST!!!! =D

haha this is the most long lasting blog i've ever had...hehe =P

tired tired tired..jasmine is slogging her lungs out everyday..err putting it in a nicer way, i'm learning a lot of new things which others wun ve the chance to...putting it in a nastier way, i'm being forced to learn things much faster than the rest, doing more things but being paid the same salary...mmm well glad tt my superiors acty think quite highly of me and they're all really nice to me..haha despite my continuous disturbance (coz i'll pop up by their desks when i have qns =x), they are all still very patient and friendly with me..=D

how come i sense tt some ppl are trying to exploit me??? mmmm....

alrights shall slp early..tml still need to work and handle 11 kids...ganbatte jasmine!!!

"aiyo~~~ so gentle and sweet~~~~"

wahahaha tt was wad my superior said when she overheard me addressing another colleague..coz was trying to pass a stack of settled claims to a colleague who was keying in some data, wasnt very sure if i shld interrupt her so said her name very very softly..

apparently my colleagues were rather surprised when they knew i'm single..haha do i look like i'm attached??? lolx

looks like i'm building more and more good rapport with my colleagues at work and they are all very nice to me!! =D hehex hen nan rang ren tao yan wo ba~ =P all those aunties will super zhao gu me, then will always chase me off for lunch at 11.45 sharp and chase me home at 6pm...thank goodness got them sia..they make my work life so much more interesting!! ^^

jasmine is getting used to this kinda lifestyle..her life is only gonna get better starting from now!!! =D

yo ppl~

thx for all the concern my frens..i'm perfectly fine now ok! haha in case if some of you duno, i'm a super strong gal!! haha one day/night is all i need to stand up again..my mama always says, na de qi jiu yao fang de xia..so since i'd decided to picked it up some time ago, i must have the courage to put it down...plus i'd alr xiang tong le, i might get to meet better guys during uni yea? yupx so why shld i restrict myself to just one choice right? ying gai gei zi yi ji hui, ye gei bie ren yi hui..=)

i tot it was rather silly for me to commit the same mistake as wad i did 5 years ago...haha silly jasmine..if its impossible 5 years ago but suddenly possible now, sth is very wrong isnt it? but no matter wad, there were lots of wonderful memories as well...so really really thank you for creating those fabulous memories..=)

ren zhang da le...ye xue hui kan kai le...dui yu sheng huo li de dian dian di di, bing bu shi yang yang dou yao na me zhi zhuo...huo xu song yi song shou, kuan yi kuan xin, ni jiu hui jue de huo ran kai lang...

more things are coming up on my way, waiting for me to settle....jasmine will continue to learn and mature...she is getting used to the corporate world and she will soon become an iron lady...

yuan lai yi ge ren de shi jie ye ke yi na me jing cai ^^

its V day today and here i am, procrastinating...

just some updates..i'd found a job under AIA as a data entry clerk in the group insurance claim team..but i'm definitely learning more than just pure data entry..prospects look good over there..started work last tues and i'd worked 2 OTs in just my first week of work..bo bian larhx i'll feel very uncomfortable if i dun complete my work (though i'm nt obliged to)..those seniors are really nice to me..super patient in teaching me the new stuff and offered to show us ard, plus tips on how to get a seat in the super crowded CBD area during lunch...guess i'm quite satisfied with this job, can gain a lot of experience and my resume will look damn good..

my colleagues were all saying tt i'm an iron lady..haha work 5 days + 2 OTs not enough, still working as part-time teacher on sat for the whole day, plus private tuition on sunday..practically no time to rest..haha weeshan even asked me if i really so que qian nots...well, its not on the point as to whether am i in need of cash..but more of preparing to pay for my uni fees la huh..

went to get some roses frm kh in the morning..wrapped those roses at my workplace since i was super early..and gave them to my colleagues..haha all of them were damn happy to receive the rose larhx..nice to see their smiles..

sometimes, life is just filled with ironies...the one who seem to have a few butterflies around him/her may be the very person who will be the loneliest during V day...jasmine is one such good e.g....she pathetically spent her entire day facing kids, when her energy bar is alr flashing red light..think tdy is the day of her 19years of life with the most number of disappointments...the feeling of being hopeful to being totally hopeless, is like climbing a high high mountain and when you finally reaches the top to enjoy the view, you slip and fall and die..yea tts the exact feeling...

i kept having a lot of hopes tdy..see la kh, u made me believe too much in tt person le larhx..made me have so many mental images..i was hoping the whole day, just to see tt person..in the morning, hoping to see him at the void deck..hoping to see him somewhere during lunch break..i looked out everywhere for his presence...and finally when my last class ended at 6, i was so so hopeful when i was able to step out of the room, only to be filled with disappointment once again..there wasnt even a single msg, not to say appearance...reluctantly dragged my feet to the bus-stop and went home for dinner...held back my tears for countless times on the bus and felt like being pressed down by tonnes of things...i had my hopes up again when i was walking towards my hse..but then again.....despite all these, still had to qiang yan huan xiao, must pretend as if i had a wonderful day tdy at work in front of my parents...how perfect can it get...

i'd waited...i'd taken steps...if you hadnt realise, i was the one initiating frm time to time..and if you hadn't realise, i'm a lady who needs love and care too....not the strong-headed jasmine tt you see when others are ard...

sometimes i just wish for a shoulder...a place where i can rely on and cry for all i want...do u know how bad it feels to hold back tears?

maybe its just a one-sided thing...again...like wad had happened 5 years ago..maybe i shld just give up...there are some things, which arent worth holding on..you xie shi, bu shi shuo xiang liu, jiu neng liu xia lai de...fang shou, ye xu hui bi jiao hao guo...dui ni, dui wo, huo xu dou shi bi jiao shi he de xuan ze...win-win situation? this is it..

do u know how painful it feels to be floating around alone on the street, when couples are holding hands ALL AROUND YOU?

perhaps i'd been reading too much into things...those things that seem to be trival to you, are in fact significant to me...if those shared memories are not been treasured by you, then it is pointless for me to hold on to it as well...if u dun ve tt meaning, dun do those things...becoz u'll end up hurting those ard you...just like how much u'd hurt me...

jasmine will wise up frm tml onwards...but for now, just let her dwell on her own procrastinations..just let her release all her bottled emotions in the form of tears....

random-ness..

i realised i'd been missing out on a lot of things..too focus on THAT thing alr..mmmm

i'd been neglecting frens...and i really feel sry abt tt..it seems as though i'm drifting away frm a lot of them..bt its alright, i'll row my boat towards each and every one of them starting frm NOW..

jasmine really needs to learn how to multi-task..not in the physical terms..bt in the interpersonal terms..=/

wow i'd been mia-ing for a longggggggggggg time...oh today is the last day of cny aka yuan2 xiao1 jie2 so pls do have a reunion tgt with ur family as much as possible yea.. =)

a rather busy week last week...went back to cchm for TD(G) on wed aftnoon, cleared up some of the documents in the cupboard as well..haha boss said i'll be the future successor of tt cupboard so i'd better do a good job..went thru things abt TD with the kids and had a great time laughing coz of their role-plays...think last wed was the first time i acty laughed during np curriculum...XD took lots of photos and videos but sad to say, the crappiest video turned out to be corrupted..sadded mannn

went to jie's 21st bdae party on sat...argh din manage to complete her prezzie...so sry jie!! i'll give it to you asap yea..=) met up with a number of my ex-ex-ncos and one ex-nco..haha had a nice chat with them, you guys rock man! =D

pass sth to xiao xiao gua yest morning and went off shortly after tt for tuition..went to city hall starbucks to give an english tuition to jac..haha a very nice lady who is super eager to learn...hopefully i can successfully help her improve her eng..=)

okiex tts all the updates for last week...and jasmine lian's status is still unemployed..-.- hopefully can find one soon...>.<

oh this sat is V DAY!!! haha guys and girls out there..if you wanna make any confession, this sat is the best chance!!! hehe those who needs advices/ideas can approach me yea...=p

went to lin lao shi's hse this morning to bai nian..met up with the HM peeps damn happy can..so long nv see them le..=D

talked to kh over the msn just now (and now) then duno why jasmine suddenly became very emo..damn the mood swing (and the flu)...went to listen to Ai Mei by Rainie Yang...its the first time i feel tt the lyrics are so real...so so real...

jasmine will nt carry too much hope..yao bao chi yi ke ping chang xin jiu bu hui tai shi wang..

and she will learn to be strong..nt just in front of others..but oso when she's facing problems alone..she will learn not to cry...but for now, just let her have an avenue................