jasmine will learn to stop procrastinating....she will learn to pick herself up again..

she will prove it to everyone tt IT IS AT YOUR OWN LOSS FOR NOT CHOOSING HER!

Jasmine is back!!!!!!

nth in the world will change or stop just becoz u're upset..parents still watch their tv and laugh hysterically as usual...brother will still be playing psp in his room talking to his darling on the phone...nth will change...

i like to be in the rain...coz no one will know i'm crying...

this is gonna be an emo post.....

i din get the letter...dong's got it and my other frens had gotten their yest as well as today..but mine is nowhere to be seen..no chance for me? looks like i always flunk interviews...first interview to TJ IP was a goner; 2nd interview for SSG was screwed; and now i flunk my 3rd one..wads with me and interviews? i was a good girl and took off my mask just for the interview...i'd shown my truthful and real side of me...i spoke from the bottom of my heart, nt my brains..did jasmine do sth wrong? she's upset..very upset..sth is missing from her life...and her family didnt bother..they werent interested in knowing how her interview was..and when she asked her brother if ministries usually take a few days to fully send out all their mail, he said yes; she told him her frens had gotten their letters bt she haven and he smirked & said 'GG'..nice bro huh? even if he was joking, cant he see when to and when nt to joke? jasmine was still hoping tt the letter wld come in today..and when she opened the letter box, there was a sudden moment of anticipation when there was a letter lying inside the box, until she took it out to realise tt it's a bill letter from PUB..how disappointing...

As is coming in a few days and jasmine thinks she's gonna screw big time...tonnes of preparations nv seems to be enuff...all the As and Bs seems so far for her to reach...will she break down and crumble?

jasmine needs someone who can give her the warmest hug, someone's shoulders to lie on and someone's embrace to fall back on...someone whom she can be herself, just simply herself, in his presence...is tt too much to ask for?

sniff sniff...jasmine is sick...=( came down with slight flu on sunday..thought it was just the fan so din really bother much abt it..until it began to worsen on mon and today was totally horrible..was sniffing more than half the time during my bio mock paper..haha apologies to those sitting around me guess i was kinda distracting..psps..

felt very awkward during the bio mock papers..think my girls will know what i meant by that bahx..=P

so did 2 hours of mock paper and at the end of it, mr ng told us tt the ans will be uploaded onto the matrix by fri and we can mark our own papers..-.- mm ok lahx at least i get to do one paper under exam condition knowing tt i'd prepared for it..=)

then went home with weewee..i mean she came over to my hse to mug larhx..i was practically sneezing non-stop and my nose was like a spoilt water-tap..ya in the end i'd gotta stuff both my nostrils with tissue paper to save myself frm the trouble of wiping and wiping..ok i know it kinda sounds gross but ya...

now i'm having a hurting throat..nt really sore bt just feels weird..hopefully all these weird symptoms will end before my As starts next week on the monday..if nt history will repeat like wad happened for prelims..>.<

As gonna start on the 3rd and end on the 20th..weewee and i are nt counting down to the no of days to As coz its just simply too depressing..but instead, we're counting down the no of days left till our freedom!!! haha its all gonna be over soon and i dun wannt feel regretful after i step out of the exam hall..so i shall really really work hard...

ppl..if u guys feel like giving up..think of what u'd vowed to the teachers who had painfully taught us for tt short yet torturous 2 years on the day of our graduation..and i think tt will be the best and greatest drving force to motivate u to work harder!! (ok at least this applies to ppl frm CG 17/07!! =D)

hang in there ppl...12 years of education and this is the final door that we'll have to cross to enter our dream course, clinch our dream scholarship and work towards the career we want!! so lets all jiayou tgt everyone!!

Quote of the day: 'Obstacles will only appear when you set your vision away from your goal'

boo! quite come time since i'd updated..

the day after grad day, phy and zheng yu came over to my hse for a mugging session...zy arrived first at ard 9 and phy at 9+..did maths qns all the way until lunchtime..the "big chef" Mr Khoo Zheng Yu was supposed to prepare lunch but kept grumbling tt there is nth in my kitchen tt can be cooked...ok lah i admit there's nt much food stock in my kitchen coz seldom eat at hm mahx..>.<>.<>

went for HAP interview on last thurs..tot it was quite an okay one though there were certain qns on homosexuality tt i kinda find them weird..ya apparently i was the only one wearing so formal lah can..almost everone were in their sch uniform and i was in my suit (more of like a business suit or formal wear - blouse, jacket, black pants and court shoes)..haha gen was saying tt i looked like as though i can report for work at the headquarters simply anytime..well i'll be damn glad to do so bahx..mine was scheduled at 2.45 but apparently i only went in at ard 3.30 coz everyone took roughly 30mins for their interview instead of the pre-planned 15mins..so went in and face a panel of 5 interviewers out of there are 2 whom i am personally more familiar of..shall nt mention their names but one of them appear to be very bored and tired so was totally nt smiling..mm the rest of the 4 were quite ok find them quite friendly in comparison with other interviewers whom i'd seen...it was like a friendly chat with them coz i'd told them ans that came right from the bottom of my heart..jasmine took off a thick layer of her mask, leaving only one thin layer of professionalism..soon 30mins was gone and i hadnt realised tt i'd spoken to them for so long! thanked them and walked out of the room proudly, hoping to leave a good impression till the very last min..had a sense of relief when i left the interview room, felt tt i'd done sth tt i'd nv done before..ray past me an umbrella aftertt coz it was raining like mad..thx lotx! =) so yupx i have one police umbrella now!! =D

over the weekends, "had a date on sat" and went somewhere special to mug on sunday..=) it was a very nice experience, sth tt i'd nv tried before..it was the first time i'm so close with my good friends and it was a unique mugging experience..thanks to nanny for taking care of the 3 of us!! u did a great job and i'm super thankful for all that you'd done!! i'd nv expected someone to be abt to sacrifice soooooo much for a person...perhaps it isnt a form of sacrifice to him ba..but no matter wad, i'm really envious of the 2 of u during the mugging period sia and i really wish the best for the 2 of u...jiayou ya!! i'm sure he will be a good guy for you and i believe things will work out between the 2 of u..my blessings~~ ^^

had been going to bedok library with hy and phy for the past 2 days..super productive actually coz its a library and there isnt much things tt u can do there other than to study..so ya like influenced by the environment and atmosphere to mug seriously..will be going there again tml and hope tt can be as productive as well...

no photos yet bt i'll upload them to my blog soon...

some msg dedication to some ppl:

jiayou kh coz i know u're a nice guy and she will learn to appreciate u de! or maybe she is alr appreciative of u just tt she duno how to express or maybe its just nt the right time..i have faith in you and i believe i can entrust her to you..you're the first one whom i approve of so dont fall short of either me or her expectation yea? JIAYOU and i shall give the 2 of you all my blessings!!! =D

i duno wad to say to you but u just seems to grumble abt things in ur life w/o looking at how much effort u'd put it..perhaps u shld have looked at how much others had done before u cry abt how pathetic u are..

if you know tt u'll be sry for ur actions..then dun do it in the first place...it hurts...i'm nt angry so dun say sorry...but i just dun understand wads on ur mind..

if tt is really wad u want..go for it my dear gal..but settle As first yea? work hard for another 1 month and you can go do watever u like le..so now just dun think so much and tackle with ur school work first bahx..i believe u can do it de..so stay focus and stay innocent & pure ya! ^^ ahma loves u!! *muacks and hugs*

tts all tt i have to say for today..lots of mixed feelings bt i'm nt gonna care so much le..so cares whether i'm attached or not..so wad if i am and so wad if i'm nt? As is the most impt thing of my life now and i'm nt gonna bother myself with other stuff..at least nt till my exams are over..so for now, jasmine will be the cold-blooded girl who will continue to put on her mask in front of everyone..

till...

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mask...

till then...

yay part 2 of the photo gallery for grad day..

TJC-ians streaming into PH(bedok)

my class girls...

ya my stupid laogong tot it was a dustbin when she first sat down..and she ended up kissing the "dustbin"..

Clockwise from left-bottom: chiu suen, hwee kee, huimin, grace..

laogong hugging the flowers tt i gave..nice photo right?

Clockwise from bottom left: sunthai, guoying, khangleng, jenna, liangyu, woonhwee..

from left: caroline and sook yui

Ms Shawn Tan!!!! thanks for the treat..

clockwise frm left: xiao xiao gua, xiao gua and laogong..

guess who is feeding weeshan?!?!?!??!

haha this is the answer!!! i was busy trying to feed weewee, ensuring tt i'm nt poking her mouth with the fork and making sure tt i am in the photo...=x

grace and i

chiu suen and i

haha the bunch of "reporters"..=P

haha i was simply too bored..XDweewee was ugly-ly trying to wear my sweater..=P

haha weewee finaaalllyyyy manage to wear my sweater properly..

here comes the freaky family series...first up is the freaky father of the family...

next up is the emo elder sister..

coming up next is the kiam pa and violent younger sister..

last but not least..the psycho mommy..>.<

me and pineapple head..

me and ziqi..i was tugging onto his bag while taking this photo to prevent him from escaping..=.=

alan and i..

tts more or less the photos i have for graduation day..will update abt tues study day at my hse with phy and zy, the library visit wed and the interview today tml..=)

hi all...monday was gradaution day for TJC..brought 3 boxes of flowers to school early in the morning..wah i look like an idiot sia..literally hua chi...weewee and xiao2 helped me transport it over to CR227 and left it in the air-con room...had a short morning assembly talk, went for a special civics period whereby ms tan gave us our result slips and check our SGC report...she gave us a card and a super cute pen each too!!! ty ms tan! =D took lots of photos after she left and proceed to the audi for the graduation concert..lots of wonderful performances by the teachers and touching msgs that they'd left for us...my EC was SO SHUAI!!!! tianx..he looked super dashing lahx!! (hey hey i'm not drooling okiex...=P) cried a little during the concert..then went to a clsrm for our own special programme..we invited teachers to our cls for some video and gave them present..the rep got to gave a speech on behalf of the cls to the respective teachers and each teacher was given a cert with a gift..then everyone started crying half-way..wahaha i was one of the first few who started crying..>.< then we din a round-robin whereby everyone will say a few words to teachers and/or class...wah cried like mad lahx.. took more photos after that and we went to Pizza Hut for lunch after tt..wahaha the entire PH was practically filled with TJC-ians lahx..had a great lunch there and took lots of photos too..lunch became ms tan's treat for the class in the end despite us insisting on paying...so well the 8 bucks goes to cls fund lo..phy and i went over to weewee's hse after lunch and watched Ironman which i fell aslp for goodness knows how many times..had dinner at her house and went for a after-dinner stroll at the small alley...went home after tt.. okiex here comes the photos...

Flowers tt i'd prepared as graduation gifts..nice right? =D

Weewee, phy and i

lao gong and i =D

Xiao gua and I =)

the guys.

haha my first grp photo with the guys..candid! =D
Sun Thai and i =D

Yi Yang (cls rep) and I..

Alan and Zheng Yu (a.k.a pineapple head) XD

Hwee kee and I (wow i like tt blur blur effect..nice =P)

woon hwee and me...=D

Jenna and i! =D

another shot..

Guo Ying and I

Wee wee and GY

ahhh bei hou ling!!!! haha no lahx if u look carefully she is actually hui yin trying to play a prank..Caroline and i...(i like the effect!! =D)

waiting for teachers' arrival...

haha trying to take the same pose again..first time was at vivocity..second was at school's canteen area and now on graduation day..i love my laogong!! =D

Qiu Jun, Huimin and I (anti-clockwise from bottom)

(from left) weewee, phy, jasmine, ms tan, khang leng and sunthai...Intruders!!! =P

haha the 3 pathetic H1 chem de..>.<

PW group members!! =D

Huimin, Jenne and Qiu Jun (wearing jenna's specs >.<)

the teachers present for the session..mrs lee (h2 econs), ms eileen wong (h1 econs), ms tan (form teacher cum h1 chem), mr ngoh (h2 maths) and ms de souza (h2 bio) taking video..

our dearest econs teacher!!!! Mrs Lee is the zai-est econs teacher ever!!!!!! (disclaimer: photo taken after the 'crying session' so my eyes are swollen and nose is red..)

liang yu, sun thai, jenna and ms de souza..

ms de souza and i!! =)

walking over to bedok PH

okiex there are still a lot more photos in my laptop but i'll upload them tml bahx..nights ppl...^^