What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

guesss i'm just a "nobody" yea?

one random qns: who am i to YOU?

this kind of feeling sucks huh..discovered a new blog today..think tt person din expect me to find out abt his/her blog...so yea so got to realise tt i was taken for granted of for all these time...well done to tt someone! u're perfectly successful in making my life sucks and i bet u dun give a damn abt it right?! just who do u take me for huh? someone whom u'll turn to when the rest of the world turns u out and i'm expected to pat your head and say 'it's all right, i'll always be here for you' ? or someone whom u can just throw to the back of ur head when u feel like u're wanted somewhere else? HA now then i realised how dumb i was to kept you in my mind and my heart! WISE UP JASMINE YOU'RE TOO GULLIBLE! ppl enjoy seeing you making a fool out of yourself!!

WELL DONE SINGAPORE TABLE TENNIS GALS!!!

woohoo~~ i'm really damn proud of them and i believe many Singaporeans will too!! well though they lost to China..but hey we're having the world no. 1, 2 and 5 against our 6, 7, and 9..so its normal right? moreover, they'd put up a tough fight, probably not the very best of their potential but who wouldnt feel the stress in such a situation? so those who're blaming them for not clinching the gold medal for singapore, ask yourself again have they not done their best under such immense stress?? no matter wad, the gals rock!!! and 3 cheers for them!!!

HA singapore finally managed to get to the result chart with a 52nd position (all thanks to the ONLY silver!!) and its considerably good enough for a small country like us..

well before the olympics game was watching the national day rally by our PM..haha kinda like it coz he was trying to explain some of the policies decisions and rationales, and was making an effort to resolve the misunderstandings tt the singaporeans have with the government and wad they are doing..mm was quite shock to hear that singapore's fertility rate is only 1.29 out of the normal 2.1 level..and he kinda went one round to shoot Jack Neo about his new film "Money Not Enough 2", saying tt he is good with the film, effects and stuff lidat (showing singaporeans wad they wanted to see) but not at the aspect of policies with reference to the ERP issue...

He'd also brought up the issue about foreign talents, whereby singaporeans complain and claim that those FTs kinda snatch away our job opportunities and make many singaporeans jobless, lose out on their competitiveness blah blah blah...well singaporeans sure are full of complaints..ok not that its unreasonable on their part coz the adults do feel the pinch when foreign talents win an edge over them in the working society..but hey, haven singapore done enough to nurture every singaporean in terms of education and survival skills? i mean where else can you find such a good education system which caters to all types of learners and bring the best out of them? and if singaporeans know the kind of crisis they are facing with the influx of FTs, then they jolly well get themselves prepared for it! i mean if you know that the storm is coming, but you're refusing to bring an umbrella out just becoz it doesnt goes well with your party suit, then you'd better be prepared to go to the party drenched with no COMPLAINTS! its the same logic! i just dun understand why some singaporeans just cant get this right...lets look at things in a more realistic and down-to-earth point of view, this is a world of competition - winners move on and losers try again, its a rule as simple as that...if you're not getting ready to compete with the FTs, then its just too bad for you..coz you're the one who's gonna get hurt at the end of the day, not anyone else..

guess i'm equally pissed off as some other frens with how much singaporeans are complaining about without knowing how ignorant they are..so just an advice over here...before you even grumble, get your facts right..

alrights my blog's kinda dead recently...so is my life..

wow i wonder how i'd pulled thru these few days man...seriously had never been so disoriented in my life ever before..HA much thanks to the education system...totally screw my own revision plan and make a BIG mess out of it..

oh wells..i was telling my fren the other time tt there are bound to be certain things that we simply carn escape from in life..so well since i ve to take the As exams anyway then i shall just make it a good one yea? so good luck to all those out there having As this year as well!!! =)

ahh ya gonna make this post a short one coz i really shouldnt be doing this right now but just din want to let my blog be left to rot huh..so yupx jiayou to all..be it year 1s chionging PW or year 2s chionging for As!! =D

didnt want to blog initially..until i was so freaking pissed with someone..

thought national day would be a peaceful day for me at home, to be able to do my homework and revise in PEACE..but apparently my parents did a splendid job in spoiling it...in fact they totally pissed me off..

i was happily doing a chem exam paper in my study room until i heard some knocking sound on the door..so went to look but saw no one..well went back to my room and heard the knockings again..yea so the cycle repeated and i cant be bothered anymore to response to the 3rd knocking..then heard my parents opening the door so went out to greet them..well tts my parents' rule..so if they're home and i dun greet then i'll be dead...

yea so guess wad was the first thing tt my mom said?? "are you deaf or wad?? must be slping right tts y never help to open the door?!!? ......." (the rest are up to u guys to imagine..cant be bothered to type out wadever crap she said) welll tts a perfectly nice way to respond to someone who is greeting you with a smiley face isnt it?? fine i didnt wanted to quarrel with her so helped to carry those boxes of food that they'd used to pray before tt into the kitchen..ya so as what i'd expected, she followed into the kitchen and started bossing around, telling me off on what to do, screaming at me for the so-called 'slow actions' according to her despite the fact tt i was trying to register every single task tt she'd just simply rattered off...HA! who says tt females can multi-task well???? can i shoot tt person to death?

so by then i was alr very much pissed of when she vent all her anger at me the moment they came home..then while i was trying to pack those stuff into places where they ought to be at, she asked where was my piggish brother (the 'piggish' was added in by me...how will she ever BEAR to call my DEAR brother piggish???? not till the day i'm dead man..) so told her tt he went out after lunch, not coming back for dinner and staying out yadayada...then she asked a qns tt i'll definitely catagorise as retarded.."your brother is not at home isit?" OMG how i wish i can faint and die at tt moment..."didnt i just told you that he WENT OUT after lunch???" well tt kinda shut her off..

yea so all the chores were being thrown to me...while my parents sat at the table enjoying muffins and coffee WITHOUT ASKING ME IF I WOULD LIKE TO JOIN THEM! isnt it like WOW?? fine i'll just take it as it slips their mind and not tt i'm insignificant..lets just take it tt way la huh? so i was clearing all the stuff from rice to vegetables to can food to fruits....alright fine if tts what my mother claimed as the trainings before i got married (like i'll ever get married in 5 years time..) then so be it..i mean i'm more or less used to it coz i'd been doing it since young...but wad hurt me most was the words tt she said during their lovely 'tea session'

"ehh ji ran er zi mei you hui lai chi fan, na wo men wan shang sui bian qu wai mian mai lai chi jiu ke yi le la..bu yong zhu dao zhe yang ma fan ma..." (ok i shall translate this to english...she said to my father tt since my brother is not coming back for dinner, then might as well just buy something back to eat tonight..so that she dont have to go through the trouble of cooking..)

wah instant heartbreak sia...as far as i know...even though when i'm not coming back for dinner, she will still insist on cooking dinner for my brother though he said its alright to buy dinner outside...see the vast difference between me and my brother?!?!?!?!??! so WHAT does she takes me for?? someone whom she pats like a puppy when she's in a good mood, makes you cuddle beside her and stroke your hair...but when she's in a foul mood, the first one to kenna will DEFINITELY be ME..wads this man..first one to turn to when in trouble will be me...first one to vent her anger will also be me! so tts like so FAIR to me huh?

this isnt the first time...those who knows me well will know more other stories...everytime when something is wrong she wun even bother to find out who the hell made the mess and she'll just happily point her finger at me though it was my brother's fault..same mistakes committed bt wad i faced will be different from my brother...when my brother doesnt picks up the hair after showering she wun make a single noise, neither will my father...but when its me, ha tts a total different story..she can rattle off for more than half an hour..whenever she is unhappy with my brother, she wun tell him off but she will come to me and complain for god knows how long even though it is OBVIOUS that i am studying..(ha now you know why i insist on studying in libraries) i mean wads the point of telling me all these when its now MY fault??? trust me, she can certainly turn things round till i'm blame-able...(as a sister, shouldnt you..........)

if not for the birth cert, i might suspect tt i dun truly belong to this family...

don't treat me like a gem when you need me and like a bag of rubbish when you don't...coz you seriously have no idea how much it stings....

Hi People!!! Yea time for some updates now… mm so for the last week had lots of muggings and muggings and MUGGINGS!! Wow! Seriously no life man. But Saturday Yester day infect) was a SPLENDID DAY! Mm went for a run with my laogong yesterday morning at the Bedok Stadium. We were supposed to meet at 9am, Haa but was kinda early and reached at around 8.45… yea So stood outside the stadium & was observing some people using the facilities at the fitness corner plus listening to my ipod. Mm was quite amused by some of the weird actions /ways of doing exercises..hana well was kinda enjoying myself… (hehe sounds quite bad. =p) mm yep Wee wee came slightly after 9 & then we went in for a ‘supposedly 2.4km run’, but erm… ya we ran for 2 rounds, paused, another 2 rounds, walked ‘round, then run cum Chiong the last round… Then we went out to the fitness corner’did some pull-ups, sit-ups and leg raisers. But throughout the exercises, the 2 of us were laughing like mad lahx.. Those guys by the side might think that we are mad… XD after that we went to Mac to get breakfast (err okay only Wee Wee bought the breakfast) plus a Gerbera for her dada, who will be performing at the TJC Alumni Band Concert…

Yea then she came over to my house, had lunch I mean I had my lunch and she had her Mac breakfast), packed my bag, took a shower and went to her house. Err when we reach the void deck then ‘remembered that I’d forgotten the Flower which wet left in the Fridge earlier on… mm so we went up to take it & went to take bus 12 , which made us waited For close to 20 minutes… Then when the bus passed TJ, I suddenly remembered that I’d forgotten my ticket!! Goodness the most thing of all sis!! Haha seriously ought to gire myself a slap sia.. So alighted half way and went back to get my ticket Zai chiong to her house… By the time I reached her house was around 5.20 le ba … Took the quickest shower ever in my life & use the shortest possible time to put on my makeup. . haha thank goodness it Wasn’t too badly done.

Wee Wee’s father was kind enough to fetch us to VCH for the concert and dinner before that… Yea and he gave us a treat. =) So by the time we reached VCH was ard 6.50 pm, mm 10 minutes before the concert and it was coincidentally, the day for the NDP rehearsal…

The concert was seriously a WOW for me! Haha it was my first time to a band concert and seeing them play the pieces really made me feel very touched… I din listen with my ears and l din look with my eyes… but l enjoy the whole concert with my heart, the heart that feels for every single music piece that they played, the heart threat feels for the passion & bond they have… Everything was terrific… Although they are not a band formed up of the best talents, although there are some imperfections in the performance, but what can be more wonderful & touchily when you’re watching a group of people who are putting in their best efforts to perform to the best that they can and coordinating as one big family? This is the beauty of life… This is where man moved one another with his true heart and sincerity …l guess it was the first time I truly clap from the deepest of my heart and applaud them with all that I can. Well done TJC Alumni band!! And keep the passion & fire for both TJ & music burning! All TJcians will be proud of u!