Went out with jiamin last wednesday to make up for her birthday on tues...haha late huh jiamin..need to chg ur habit le wor =p anw we met at PS and dinner was on me at cafe cartel..mmm we had a long chat i guess, coz the waiter kept refilling our cups =x went to walk walk ard PS and promised to bring jm out to far east one day during june to get her shoes she wants...=)

Received the notification letter frm moe wrt to the scholarship le..still, not much 'joy' frm my family..well who cares.....

this weekend will be burnt by ATC, next weekend by LMSC and the following one by CLTC...haha wow busy busy busy~

supposed to meet tt hanrui for dinner or wadsoever tonight de..haha bt i guess he's too busy keeping himself by HER side so totally fgt abt me lo =p haha its ok da ren bu ji XIAO REN guo yaaaa....XD

dear farina is leaving office this fri le...sadded...no more lunch mate and someone to ka-jiao when i'm on my way to the toilet >.<

tts tt..

scholar...so what?

i was informed this morning that i'd been awarded the moe teaching scholarship..farina was the first to know of it..followed by my bro and parents..

he merely said congrats...thats how unfeeling my bro can get..

my parents cant sms..so i din expect them to reply/call..

when i got on my parents' car after work..no interest was placed on my moe scholarship...my mom simply harped on the qns why din i manage to get thru the spf scholarship despite trying twice....is that supposed to be the main topic??? i dun understand...

no one in my family spoke another word abt the scholarship...ZERO....wad was tt supposed to mean?

my parents wanted me to follow my bro's footsteps into becoming a teacher..of coz personally i do have the interest and passion..bt this is wad they want isnt it?

they'd always been telling me how great my bro is..in pulling thru Os, As and uni w/o having them to worry much..i tried so hard and i did surpass..although Os was the same performance, bt i certainly did much better in As and i clinched a SCHOLARSHIP with my own capability!!! why cant they just PRAISE ME?!?!? does it kill to say well done?? or just a simple smile of approval???

i didnt know tt wad i'd been working on, is acty so insignificant and meaningless in their eyes...how disgusting can this reality get??

i worked so hard...not just the process...bt in the end..i'm still not happyyyy......