exams are really suffocating...cant wait for 4th may to end the short-term misery...2 more sems to go after this....
it feels really terrible when u yearn to do well but deep down, u know thats not gonna come try no matter how hard you try...
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
how does it feel like
to know when exactly you're dying?
*warning: this is an extremely depressing entry. viewer's discretion is advised..
if given a choice, will you
(1) choose to know when you're gonna die so that you can...
- leave the rest of your life to the fullest and leave no regrets
- spend the rest of your life trying very hard to make that day come slower (even though deep inside, you know that's impossible)
(2) choose to not know and live your live as per normal
up till today, i'll still choose option 1 for myself...
but, i'll really rather not know it for my family and friends....coz its too depressing for me to bear..
yes, if i know, then at least i can do whatever i can to accompany that person till his/her very last breath, grant all of his/her wishes, adjust myself to be able to accept his/her absence...
but all those are just too much to bear...
if that someone had been by your side for the past 10-20 years, how are you going to 'learn' how to accept his/her absence?
maybe i'm all too emotional.....or not?
*warning: this is an extremely depressing entry. viewer's discretion is advised..
if given a choice, will you
(1) choose to know when you're gonna die so that you can...
- leave the rest of your life to the fullest and leave no regrets
- spend the rest of your life trying very hard to make that day come slower (even though deep inside, you know that's impossible)
(2) choose to not know and live your live as per normal
up till today, i'll still choose option 1 for myself...
but, i'll really rather not know it for my family and friends....coz its too depressing for me to bear..
yes, if i know, then at least i can do whatever i can to accompany that person till his/her very last breath, grant all of his/her wishes, adjust myself to be able to accept his/her absence...
but all those are just too much to bear...
if that someone had been by your side for the past 10-20 years, how are you going to 'learn' how to accept his/her absence?
maybe i'm all too emotional.....or not?
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
no where else to rant
except for here...my beloved blog that will allow me to rant/vent whatever i want...
my foot hurts! seriously, this is the time when i really wish i could just say all sorts of #^$&^((#)$*$^$)#%!!>$(#$....rahhhhhh
just because of a stupid small blister, it developed into a big swollen one pus, and it hurts when i walked...so i decided to prick and poke a few holes, squeezed out all the 'juice' and pus, applied anti-bacterial cream....my toe turned purple!!!!! so i switched to qing cao you and plaster it...totally had difficulty walking coz i din want to put pressure on my last 2 toes (1. i din want my toe to hurt 2. i din want to squeeze out more 'juice'/blood) so after an entire day of 'limping', i ended with an extremely painful right foot. the part of the foot that connects to my last 2 toes hurts like S.O.T.B (pardon me, i couldnt find a better word than this)...tried massaging my foot and i ended up crying...
ohwells...guys might think 'wlau, its just a blister la....we'd been through worse in army...', girls might not be able to 'feel' the pain....but ohwells, i'm just ranting coz nth else could be done anyway...
darn..(ps: i dun usually end my post with sth crude, but lets make today an exception)
my foot hurts! seriously, this is the time when i really wish i could just say all sorts of #^$&^((#)$*$^$)#%!!>$(#$....rahhhhhh
just because of a stupid small blister, it developed into a big swollen one pus, and it hurts when i walked...so i decided to prick and poke a few holes, squeezed out all the 'juice' and pus, applied anti-bacterial cream....my toe turned purple!!!!! so i switched to qing cao you and plaster it...totally had difficulty walking coz i din want to put pressure on my last 2 toes (1. i din want my toe to hurt 2. i din want to squeeze out more 'juice'/blood) so after an entire day of 'limping', i ended with an extremely painful right foot. the part of the foot that connects to my last 2 toes hurts like S.O.T.B (pardon me, i couldnt find a better word than this)...tried massaging my foot and i ended up crying...
ohwells...guys might think 'wlau, its just a blister la....we'd been through worse in army...', girls might not be able to 'feel' the pain....but ohwells, i'm just ranting coz nth else could be done anyway...
darn..(ps: i dun usually end my post with sth crude, but lets make today an exception)
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Realised that the best time to see/observe one's true character is when he/she is extremely tired...coz he/she will put in no/near zero effort to hide what they usually do, because pretence is no longer their top priority, neither do they have the energy to control their temper... haha some of u may disagree...but to be frank, it doesnt really bothers me...its my blog anyway....
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