ji ran zuo bu liao ban lvi, na jiu zuo peng you ba! =) bu guo you yi ye shi xu yao shuang fang lai wei chi de..

think a lot for the past few days, and as usual, found tt whatever that i'd done was so silly...haha i'm really someone who can stand up rather fast huh =p

kan kai le..ri zi jiu hui hao guo yi dian..you shi hou, tai zhi zhuo ye wei bi shi yi jian hao shi..

no matter what, those are still wonderful memories that would not have been possible w/o you..so i ought to be thankful for that =) and those are memories which i will never fgt, becoz they form up a part of me and make me who i am tdy..

frens..ya? ^^

i stupidly tot han rui's bdae celebration was on friday and only got to know tt its supposed to be yest after i'd my make-up and everything >.< haha since he is the one responsible, he ought to kill time off with me =P sat at ecp aft my work on friday and the breeze is DAMN NICE!! haha think i'm a very beach-person ya..simply love the beach a lot...i can just sit there and seriously do nth for the entire day...soooooo relaxing..and it puts my brain on rest =D had a good chat with hanrui till ard 10.30 then sent me home...

looks like lao tian ye was not on the side with hanrui huh...haha the rain poured quite heavily yest and got heavier in the evening time...haha so bobian had to retreat back to his hse there...then once we all reached there with those food been transported, the rain stopped -.- and guess what??? i tot i went there as a guest huh..in the end i'd to set up the bbq fire for them!!! all the guys are so USELESS pls...enter NS le still duno how to set up fire...one word for them - CUI!! haha damn lousy pls...totally despise them...=p so i had to set up the fire wearing heels and skirt >.< luckily the skirt got shorts inside de..then those guys just all gather ard and eye power, not like their eye power helped in any way...so my both pitiful hands were black and my face was somewhat in a miserable state as well..and those guys dun even know how to fan the fire!!!!!! tian ah...you mei you gen cui yi dian de???? haha bt the auntie was nice enough to bring down a pail of water for me to wash my hands larhx..hehe in fact, the auntie treated me very well..apparently i was one of the few who got to eat the crab tt uncle went to catch at ubin; i was personally being served food by auntie and she kindly helped me take tissue paper to clean my face; i was being given the cake with kiwi (haha there arent much fruits on the cake anw) and i seem to be able to click with her huh..haha jasmine guo ran shi you lao ren yuan! =D

most of them left aft the cake cutting, so left with those chung cheng gang nia lor..oh oh!! i got to know this girl called yi bin (nt sure if i've gotten her name right), gf of shan rui...omg she's such a sweeeeeet gal!!! coz i was kinda choked by the smoke a few times and she was so sweet to help me fan off those smoke..fed me satay while i was setting up the fire..although it was our first time interacting with each other, but she was sooo friendly and approachable that we became like sisters almost instantly larhx..haha we share food like no one's biz and just so on the same frequency...wah tell u ah shan rui, if you ever dare to mistreat her, you're so gonna die man...=p but i doubt so la huh, haha the two of them look very sweet and super compatible...blessings from me ya!! =D errr i shall not mention abt those embarrassing stuff la huh..haha if anyone wants to know can go ask phy..XD

met mrs lee and 8 other clsmates for lunch at hk cafe tdy...apparently i was the 'first' though i was alr late -.-ll alan acty came first bt he saw no one inside so walked away..haha i was daring enuff to walk in!! =p so everyone was practically late, with phy being the champion reaching at ard 1plus >.<>.< haha bt she came dwn anw and we had a very nice long chat with her...got to know a lot more abt her in fact, and please look after your health more ya mrs lee!!! we want you to be super healthy so that we can have a gathering every year as long as 20-30 years ya!!

finally applied for uni just now...hope i'd made the right choice and i will nt regret..haha jasmine never regrets...and i shall not make any exceptions to that =D

i think the normal rxn for all kids when u burst their balloons will be to cry right?? similarly, someone burst this balloon of mine....

i wonder whether was it a right decision to ask that qns..yes becoz i wun be kept in the dark anymore..no becoz i'm badly hurt as a result...

totally cldnt slp last night..was tearing all the way till dawn and i 'woke up' with a pair of puffy eyes...even had to lie to my mom tt i kept rubbing my eyes tts why they're so swollen...=x chose to wear a full black outfit with a black bag...black from head to toe..its gonna be a dark day for jasmine...

its really a torture to force myself to appear happy when i'm not...damn xin ku...finally got off daddy's van and can resume back to my normal self..went to the office and pauline told me to zi ji kan zhe ban coz i'll ve to source empty tables from those who're on leave..and apparently, no one from the brokers team seem to be on leave tdy..so i ended up doing my work at a pathetic corner, using calculator from my hp...>.< farina smiled brightly to me when i walked past but all tt i could manage was a bitter smile..i so wanna get out of my office and ku ge gou somewhere else..but i cant...

finally hang in there till 6.15pm and went off with farina...she'd been asking me why i look so sad all day long and i told her wad happened..thx farina for listening to me...although it wasnt the full story...

took train to pasir ris and walked all the way to pasir ris beach with my 2-inch high court shoes...i was just walking aimlessly down the path which i duno where it'll lead me to...was totally zone out to the extent that i only felt the pain in my feet aft i sat down by the beach..the sea breeze is cold...bt my heart is even colder...no longer bleeding, coz there's no more blood to bleed le...cried...penned down my feelings....emo....then aimlessly walked back home again...din eat anything tdy...but i dun feel the hunger at all...in fact, i feel like puking out wadever that is inside my stomach (= gastric juice??)

wondering wads happening to jasmine lian, the supposed iron lady and damn strong gal?? she'd been thrown down into a deep deep well which she cant climb up at all...they're still tgt afterall and i'd once again, became a third party...is this the pay i had to pay for rejecting the other guys? i'd been foolishly waiting for months, for nothing....

sacrificed a lot...but yet, i'm nt sure if those sacrifices are worth it or not...my bio grade is one of the biggest sacrifice...

to think that i was still waiting for ur appearance during vday...when u were in fact holding on to another person at that point of time....to think tt i specially dress up to work on that saturday, thinking that u might pop up at my workplace with a rose...i'd been dreaming for too long.......

if they hadnt told me, i wouldnt have suspected...and from the way u talked on the phone, i'd more or less guessed it...i wonder, how long do u intend to keep me in the dark if i hadnt taken the initiative to ask...

wu nian de gan qing...bu shi shuo fang jiu neng fang de...gai wo yi dian shi jian shi ying mei you ni de ri zi...

wo de xin si le...zai ye gan jue bu dao tong le...yong zhe ke bing leng de xin, huo de xia qu ma?

dang yi ge ren gan dao lei le, ta hui hen xiang ting xia lai, huo xu yong yuan dou bu hui xiang zai zou xia qu le...